In the last year and a half, I started feeling different and more spiritual. I can tell you that it was an eye awakening experience. I felt lost, confused, and happy all at the same time. It can easily be confused with anxiety, and or depression. Especially because it all happened so fast that I didn’t realize when it all started, why it started and what it was here for.
I experienced lots of pain because I didn’t understand what was going on. I started to question many things around me. I was afraid that I was losing grasp of what I knew. I didn’t realize what had started and why. But one day I awoke and knew exactly what was happening to me and only then is when I also realized what kick-started it all. Finally, I was able to stop grieving the old me and started embracing the new authentic me. Now there was clarity and I started to feel like the chosen one.
Don’t get too excited and hold on tight because you may lose family members, friends, your job, maybe even your spouse along the way because it’s a lonely & difficult process. They will start questioning you and they will start calling you names, like crazy, or say you crazier than a goat. Yes, these will be the growing pains and consequences of your spiritual growth and becoming more authentic. You will no longer allow people of low vibration by your side. You will start shedding your old skin and it will hurt. You will want to go back to the old you. You know the known, comfort and just plain old habits. At first, I was upset as I started losing people all around me. Then I realized that through this journey I had asked the universe to remove non-authentic and or low vibe people from my side.
Now I understand that I am solely responsible for the energy that I allow to surround myself and that which I bring to the table. It’s okay to get away from people or places just because they are not an extension of where you are going. Always remember that the people who really love you will be there at the end of your trip. And that staying authentic and being able to look yourself in the mirror is priceless.
Rosa Julia Parra